On my mind...

Lately only one thing has been on my mind... more like one person, and a night I will never forget. It was June 24th, two days after my birthday and it was the day I found out someone I care so much about was going to be leaving for 2 years. That night we went to the park with his friends, we just layed under the stars looking over the valley and he just simply held my hand and then we got back in the car and he showed me this song, it was one I had never heard and he said it was one that reminded him of me and then he began to sing along with it as we drove off. That night was the night he first told me he loved me, words he had never said to anyone else and words I would long to hear...I listen to the song on days I miss him because it reminds me of that day and reminds me of that summer... Today is one of those days.

"Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time Surely you can take some comfort knowing that you're mine Just hold me tight, lay by my side Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time I found my place in the world Could stare at your face for the rest of my days Now I can breathe, turn my insides out and Smother me Warm and alive I'm all over you Would you smother me?Let me be the one who never leaves you all alone I hold my breath and lose the feeling that I'm on my own Hold me too tight, stay by my side And let me be the one who calls you baby all the time I found my place in the world Could stare at your face for the rest of my days Now I can breathe, turn my insides out and smother me Warm and alive I'm all over you Would you smother me?When I'm alone time goes so slowI need you here with meand how my mistakes have madeYour heart breakStill I need you here with meBaby I'm hereNow I can breathe, turn my insides out and smother me Warm and alive I'm all over you Would you smother me?Now I can breathe, turn my insides out and smother me Warm and alive I'm all over you Would you smother me?Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time Let me be the one who calls you baby"

working day and night and everything between...

So here I am sitting here at work coming upon hour 20 that I have been here and still have 9 more hours to go! Boy has it been fun!! Remind me never to do this again, it is pretty much torture just getting an hour of sleep here and there between patients... I don't know how doctors do it! They are pretty much nuts! I think tomorrow I will probably collapse on my bed as I get home at 4pm and just sleep the day away!! I am so thankful for my daddy and sister who were nice enough to bring me dinner, something for breakfast and lunch as well as my needed neccesities for the day- I am pretty sure no one wanted to smell stinky breath! hahaha. Now I am all nice and refreshed!! I think people need to stop getting themselves hurt so I can sleep more! hahaha. Well that is all for today! I am tired and ready to sleep but can't, isn't it terrible?!

Thankful

I am thankful for my mom and her great example to me... my daddy and all the wonderful things he's taught me through the years... Brenda my sister for always being there for me... my brother travis for being my protector... My sister Stephanie for always dealing with my teasing and everything... my best friend Kylee for always being there for me when I need her or when I don't even know that I do, for being a great person to talk to and care... my best friend Artie and the wonderful example he has given me, for helping me gain a better testimony, for always being there to listen even when he is 5,000 miles away, for loving me with all my faults... Brandon my bestie for always putting a smile on my face... Whitney for being a shoulder I know I can cry on... My job and the great people I work with there... My home and the people that come and go in it... Food on the table... Clothing on my back... Music and the wonderful things it can do for you... I am thankful for many things and I probably forgot a lot but I just wanted to share a little of what I have been thankful for this year!!

Everyone Learns From Disaster...

Life is good... no life is GREAT!!! It took me awhile to realize this but with some help I have! I have been down lately and everyone could tell, no one truly knows all that has been going on but it has been keeping me down what with that and then not making it into the nursing program and then just the many stresses of school but now things are looking brighter! With a simple little email from my best friend Artie that said "Loooove You!! Have a great week!!" everything seemed a little better. I began to have a better out look on things, but I was still a little down and then in the mail came a letter from Spain as well as one from California from my friend Brandon and their words were just what I needed to hear and were encouraging and inspiring and made my outlook change. Sometimes hard times come but in those times our friends come and save us. This Thanksgiving season I am grateful for my AMAZING friends and their influence on me and their testimonies that help me and just them being in my life! I don't know how I got so lucky but I truly am blessed with these ones!! I know we sometimes take the people in our lives for granted but I know that I never will take Artie for granted because he always seems to be saving me from myself and from the troubles of life. I can always count on my best friends for everything and I am so grateful for them and hope I can be somewhat like they are to me!! I love you all! I hope you guys remember your friends in your thanks this year as we think of our things in our lives we are thankful for!! :)

FINALLY!

What a day! I got a letter on Thursday from Artie mi amor! :)
I love to get letters from him and it was a letter I had been waiting for, it said the things I had needed to hear. I have always wondered where I stood in his life if I was just the best friend or what and I know it's not the time to worry about it right now since he is 5,000 miles away and still has 8 months out there but a girl still wonders. It turns out he does love me as more than just the best friend and has always thought of us getting serious when he comes home but he was willing to give it all up because I told him I was kind of dating this other kid, but that is LONG OVER and shouldn't have happened, but it's all good things are okay now! I am the only one he will write back to besides emailing his family so that makes me feel pretty special. I really love this boy and it scares me a little... but that doesn't mean I will not try. Love is worth it all and I can't wait to find out the rest of my story!!

Party it up!

Over the weekend I had super fun at Traci's party dressing up and everything! We played twister and pictionary and had fun just being goofy! Here are a couple pics of me and the girlies!

Words Can Not Even Exlain...

OH MY GOSH!!! I can't even put into words what I am feeling right now! I am just so overwhelmed with happiness!!!!! :)
I was kinda bummed that I didn't get to talk to Artie this morning, that I barely missed him but then an hour ago I checked my email and had just gotten a response back from him and then I hurried and wrote back just saying hey are you still there and then I got a mesage "Hey Babe!!!!!!!!!!!" It was so AMAZING! We talked for 15 minutes and it was the best thing that has happened in a long time! I can't remember the last time I was this happy... and over a silly email, well to me it isn't silly but I am pretty sure to all the rest of you it is!! But WOW!!!!! Can't even say how I feel cuz it is just too great to put to words. I love him, I really do... and it is hard with him being gone and not knowing what is going to happen when he gets home but I am just going to see what happens when he gets home and I am happy with that! He is my best friend and a HUGE blessing in my life, one of my greatest! I can't wait to see him again and talk to him again.... only 8 months and 20 days!!!! :)

Missing you...

I woke up this morning and got ready for work and then got on the computer to check my email and to my suprise there was an email from Artie that I had just gotten a couple minutes later... It was just some fun pictures and stuff and then A minute later I get another one!! So I decided to just send him a little email saying hello and then I waited, and waited, and waited...okay so it wasn't that long that I waited cuz I had to go to work but then I just left and figured he saw and that was all... then I got to work and checked my email and there was a response back to him and he wanted to chat with me but I had left just 5 minutes before he responded. I just missed talking to my best friend, the one I love and care for. I miss him so much and it gets hard sometiems, especially when people tell me to not miss him or not to even talk to him. It is my life and I will do what I want, and right now I am missing him....

I am finally blogging... don't really know what I am doing but I am blogging! HOORAY!!! :)